Psalm 6: God, I Don't Feel So Good....
For the director of music. With stringed instruments. According to sheminith.
A psalm of David.
Lord, do not rebuke me in your anger or discipline me in your wrath. Have mercy on me, Lord, for I am faint; heal me, Lord, for my bones are in agony. My soul is in deep anguish. How long, Lord, how long?
Turn, Lord, and deliver me; save me because of your unfailing love. Among the dead no one proclaims your name. Who praises you from the grave? I am worn out from my groaning. All night long I flood my bed with weeping and drench my couch with tears. My eyes grow weak with sorrow; they fail because of all my foes. Away from me, all you who do evil, for the Lord has heard my weeping. The Lord has heard my cry for mercy; the Lord accepts my prayer. All my enemies will be overwhelmed with shame and anguish; they will turn back and suddenly be put to shame.
Getting sick is never fun. I mean, yeah in theory staying home from school sounds fun, but as we all have learned the past month, not going to school is not as fun as we think of it in our minds. But beyond not being able to see people, getting sick is never fun.
I used to tell people that I would rather have a stomach bug where I was throwing up than a cold where my nose was all stuffed up and my throat was sore. Colds just always linger and feel like they last forever. But then I had a stomach bug again a few years, and let me tell you, it was NOT fun. I just felt completely miserable. Last year around this time I had the flu and I was completely miserable for multiple days.
I don't know about you, but those times where I've felt sick like that are some of the times I can most vividly remember just crying out to God for help. Even though I was probably not going to die from the flu, it FELT LIKE IT MAN! It felt like God was the only one who could help me out there.
We don't fully know what David is going through here, but he seems desperate. He cries out that he is "faint" and his "bones are in agony," leading many to think he was battling sickness or physical ailment. There is also mention of David's enemies again, meaning it's also possible he recently survived an attack or something like that. Whatever the details of what is making him cry into his couch this night, it causes David to shift his mind to all of the bad things he's done in his life.
David prays for both mercy and healing. While sickness is NOT a punishment for the bad stuff we do, David realizes he doesn't really deserve for God to heal him here. David has messed up quite a bit in his life. Yes, he's always turned back to God, but he still hasn't lived a perfect life.
David could have tried praying... "Hey God, can you heal me? I mean, if you look at my track record, I kinda deserve this miracle here. I've done great things for you, so you owe me."
Instead, David prays "Lord, do not rebuke me in your anger or discipline me in your wrath. Have mercy on me, Lord, for I am faint." He asks for an act of mercy out of God's love for him instead of a reward for something he did.
By the end of the Psalm he knows that God has heard his weeping. God has heard his call for help. He knows his enemies will experience justice soon from the hand of God.
God hears our weeping. He hears our pain. He even knows what it is like to experience pain. Two thousand years ago, God came down as Jesus and lived a human life. John 11:35 is the shortest verse in Scripture, and it says that "Jesus wept" over the death of his friend Lazarus (who Jesus then casually healed). It's okay to experience sorrow and sadness. Jesus did. But his response to our situation is not because we deserve Him to come and heal us or help us out, but because He loves us SO MUCH.
Challenge: Name your current sorrows and pains to God. I know for me, I tend to pretend the hard stuff and the sad stuff aren't there. But it's important for us to name the pains in our life and bring them to God. Make a list of your current sorrows and present them to God. Thank Him for His mercy toward you, not because of what you've done, but because of what He has done.